Losing Weight, Wk 4 (**STICKIED**)

So, today's my 24th birth-day and the start of week 5 of my weight loss program. I've been working out 6 times a week and cutting out 95% of snacks and 100% of soft drinks from my diet. The result? No weight loss so far. I weighed myself this morning and was sad to see no progress. I feel like I'm on the right track, but it is a bit dissapointing to see that nothing's come off so far. It was also exacerbated by the fact that I woke up not feeling well and have been only feeling worse over the course of the day. I don't think I will be able to work out tonight, so I will have to make it up later in the week.

I don't really have much to say. I've had a frustrating week. Not workout wise, but life wise. I signed up for my first class in hebrew this semester, and it was very dissapointing. I felt so stupid. I thought I had come far enough in my hebrew that I could hold up fine in an all-hebrew class. But, then I sit in the class, and I see or feel that I still have another Grand Canyon to cross. It's been very disheartening, especially for the fact that it's in the subject that I reall want to learn. This english MA program that I'm in right now is not what I want to do with my life. I want to become a Forensic Psychologist, and this hebrew class is Offender Profiling and Crime Scenes. So, here I am, thinking that I'm in heaven. Finally, I can get back on track to what I reall wanted to do. Then, I sit down, and I can barely understand anything that the guy's talking about. Everyone's taking reams of notes, and I've got only a few lines. Plus, this guy is nowhere close to be any sort of expert in the field of Profiling; the field that I am very interested in specializing in. I just wanted to break down and cry. I did later on. I walked out, thinking to myself that I could be sitting in a classroom at John Jay and understand everything that's going on and have every teacher that's the fore-front experts in what they're teaching. It was probably my very first moment of "I want to be back in the states" that I've had since I've moved here. I actually felt guilty about it. I mean, I made this decision freely. I knew that it would be tough, but I told myself that I would work hard to achieve what I want.

But, I think my frustrations stemmed from the fact that I thought I was getting better with my hebrew. Obviously, that's not true, and it hurts. It makes me wonder if I'll ever get there. OK, now, I have tears coming back in my eyes. I just see myself having to be relogate to teaching English or something for the rest of my life because I can't command the language well enough to get a job in what I want to do. I have a BA, and it could be toilet paper here. It's worth that little right now. I'm sorry. It's just that I feel that one thing should be easy in my life. Whatever. It's just school, right? It's stupid to get this upset over it.

Anyways, I'm also a bit frustrated that I haven't lost any weight. Maybe, I'm still doing something wrong. I don't know. I feel that I'm making progress, so I'm just going to keep plugging away. Do any of you have any advice or suggestions as to why I haven't lost a pound in the past month of really sticking to working out 6 days a week and modifying my diet? Anything would be appreciated. Sorry for the rant. I'll be better next week. Don't worry about me.